November 5th, 2007 · 14 Comments


…and the other reason i hate halloween is that when your boyfriend’s kid comes over for the entire weekend and brings her entire huge bag of candy with her, you eat entirely way too much milk chocolate – which isn’t even your thing.  and then you wake up on sunday morning feeling and looking like hell from a hefty fat and sugar hangover.

not that you were feeling and looking so fabulous on let’s say, even friday morning…

because it’s never the one lost hershey weekend, or the occasional over the top decadent evening with friends.  it’s the long, long line of pasta dinners and buttered bread and throwing all dessert caution to the wind during an already calorie laden restaurant dinner.  it’s cracker barrel on a road trip and sampling your way through costco or whole foods.  it’s forgetting whose body you reside in and then eating the way that does you no good.  it’s living to eat – which i do.   and i am (still) packing on the lbs. 

and i have no excuse.  i am weak in the face of food and the food is winning.  this round…

sometimes for stretches, i can do really well.  i am mindful of every bite.  i even go so far as to write it all down in my ‘diet’ computer program and watch it count my every carb/protein/fat gram.  and you know?  when i do that?  it really helps me to stay in my jeans. 

i am so not in my jeans. 
my big jeans?  
not in ‘em.

and even now, as a rule - halloween aside - i don’t eat any ‘junk’.  i don’t eat fast food, or greasy chinese, or fatty mediocre mexican.  i hardly ever indulge in pizza.  i don’t grab food on the run.  i don’t drink sugary drinks, or snack-on cookies or chips.  i never have ice cream in the house.  i don’t even allow a bag of bagels to cross the threshold.  all. way. too. dangerous. 

and still i am, for me, fat.  again.  so not good. well, worse than that, really. because somehow it is my weirdo kinda normal to gain-lose, and then gain-lose 25 lbs. in one year.

so here and now i am pledging that starting this sunday i am on a new plan.  i am measuring and counting my intake.  i am juicing.  and eating lots of oatmeal.  i will go to bed hungry every night.  i like that feeling.  that empty clean feeling. 

and i will blog about it, and cook some great and mindful food – and hope that you check in.  it’s not exactly the season to watch the scales go down.  but this is my plan and i’m sticking to it.

but i still have 5 days before i go under!  and wednesday night is bottarga 201!

stay tuned… 

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14 responses so far ↓

  • 1 Dan // Nov 6, 2007 at 8:32 am

    Tragically (for my buds of taste and my belly of extreme growth), this is a blog posting I need to read and put into action as well.

    It certainly wasn’t my rationale for a) starting kitchen geeking, or b) reading other fabulous food blogs. But really, I’d prefer to maintain the ability (i.e. life and breathing) to read about all the yummy out there for several more decades.

    And really, I’d be curious what the diet machine spit out when you typed in a dinner serving of the latkes and scallops. High on cholesterol maybe (the scallops), but relatively good other wise, yeah?

  • 2 claudia // Nov 6, 2007 at 9:16 am

    dan – oh gawd no. butter butter butter, olive oil oil oil. fat fat fat.
    the scallops were not the issue…
    so that dish is definitely not a do-over. but wonderful nontheless…

  • 3 Dan // Nov 6, 2007 at 9:45 am

    So maybe some ginger/soy marinated grilled/sauteed extra firm tofu instead of scallops? You still meet the brown, crispy outside with squishy inside texture requirement, and can fry those up in less oil/butter.

    Or maybe I finally hit the sporting goods store and fill up the last remaining space in my living room with the eliptical. Yeah, that’s probably more likely.

  • 4 claudia // Nov 6, 2007 at 9:48 am

    i’m thinking eliptical…
    yup – eliptical.

  • 5 TaratheFoodie // Nov 6, 2007 at 12:14 pm

    Exactly – exercise more. And save dinner time for when you eat all these fabulous things. Make breakfast and lunch healthy eating times. Drink LOTS of water. If you do those three things, I believe you will be just fine. Hey, I’m on WW for christ sake and just started a food blog because I too love to cook and eat. I believe it can be done!

  • 6 ElZorro // Nov 6, 2007 at 12:23 pm

    Which reminds me…
    Upon commenting on a Certain Female Country Star’s new slimmed-down looks, she said it was “thanks to her new Doctor’s diet secret”. When asked what the secret entailed (Wheatgrass? Spirulina? Lemons and Cayenne?) she said “It’s easy, I can eat anthing I want; I just can’t swallow it. I chew-chew-chew (makes chewing noises), then I spit it out on a bucket. And then my staff comes and clean ‘em up”


  • 7 Maffy // Nov 6, 2007 at 12:58 pm

    Oh, you sweet thing! I am so there! This is truly not the season, but you’re giving me the courage to do it anyway…just one quick trip to the bay area for a few bites, and then I’m with you! Show me the way, oh Goddess of good things in the kitchen, and I will join you on the path of healthy and creative food love!

  • 8 claudia // Nov 6, 2007 at 6:00 pm

    tara – at my age, even with alla that – dinner can’t be too decadent. it’s a daily calorie thing and mine are gonna have to be low low low.

    Z – oh gawd. how awful. maybe i could just spit out every other bite? but then there’s the staff thing. no staff…

    Maffy – i am serious as can be. join in. i’d love a buddy… the bay area – wow. how wonderful for you. sunday is D day.

  • 9 Meg // Nov 6, 2007 at 10:25 pm

    Yuck. It’s kind of depressing when the big jeans are snug. Still… even with working it off ahead of you, do you really regret things like those scallops? They looked worth every calorie you’re planning on spending cutting from your diet, or working off (or both).

  • 10 Carrington // Nov 6, 2007 at 10:38 pm

    Eat fried whiting, drink orange soda, and be merry at noon on Friday, for Sunday you diet.

  • 11 Lucy.R.E. // Nov 9, 2007 at 5:27 pm

    your fret posts always make me want to give you a big hug. you go girl!


  • 12 Wendy // Nov 11, 2007 at 8:13 am

    I’m in a very similar place to you just now. Luckily my partner is too and when he decides to loose those extra few kilos he really goes for it. A tag-along diet isn’t so bad. :)

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  • 14 fluffernutter // Nov 12, 2007 at 12:40 pm

    I have the same issues — no junk, no sweets (Halloween aside), tiny portions, healthy foods, daily food journal, masses of exercise and still I’ve put on weight. I decided to cut out my one nightly cocktail and breakfast — not hungry in the morning anyway, and seriously suspect all those Kellogg-funded studies that say you can’t function without breakfast. It works. but still. It does seem like an extreme step to have to take.

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